wow....i haven't written here in a loooooooooooooooong time.

so much has happened. so much time has past. its amazing.
i will be writing in here more and more. don't worry.

how is everyone?!?!?!?!?!

heeeeey.
i made a new friend.
he's a freshman and i'm a junior.
and i found out he likes to make mixes for his friends.
so i want to make him a "new friends" mix.

care to share any songs you think would fit on a new friends mix?!

he likes iron and wine, the shins, the smiths.

and i request only mp3s.
they are the only ones that work with my cd burning programs.

thanks!!!!

omgness.
i haven't updated in like......forever.

how is everyone?!?!?

yeeeeeeeeeeeeah.
so its spring.
YAY!!!!!!!!!
except its rainy.
well....spring is actually rainy a lot.
hahha.

sooooooo i love this song.

omgnessssssss....
GREY'S ANATOMY LAST NIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
IZZIE AND GEORGE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
omg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i totally always wanted them to hook up.
now i want them together!!!!!!!!!!!
but i love alex and izzie though.
but i don't like callie and george.
i mean i like callie...but not married to george.

hi :D
so.
life is.
good.
amazing.
actually.
haha.
:D

so this morning i made myself breakfast.
i made eggs, poured myself a cup of black coffee, and milk.
and ate.
and i have decided that i am walking up tomorrow morning
before my mom [which will be like...5 in the morning haha]
and making her breakfast.
yep yep. i just feel like doing that. 

and in a few i'll be heading out to b&n with my parents.
and just chilling there for a few hours.

then tomorrow i have church.
and then i'm getting together with a friend that i haven't seen since the summer.
i'm having lunch with him.
he goes to a different school.
and then i'm hanging out with another friend of mine.
we are getting together and we will watch THUMBSUCKER!!!
i'm so excited cause i haven't seen that movie yet.

omgness.
so. yeah.
haha.


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=msVimrRuW-g

hi.
how is everyone?
i realize i haven't updated in a while.
i'm sorry dear friends!!!

omgness...who watched grey's last night?!?!?!?!?!?!?
HOLY SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
wow.

ugh.
so ihave a long weekend.
YAY!!!!!
we had off today.
and we have off monday.

sooo.
what has been going on with everyone?
how is everything?

<333333
abs

so.
i'm feeling better.
my parents kept me home an extra day.
last night they got me this medicine.
to help my cold.
and i've been taking it all day today.
and boy. let me tell you!!
it knocked the hell out of me.
i slept alllllllll friggen day.
well. i mean i woke up at 6.
came downstairs to wait for my mom.
i fell back asleep on the couch.
didn't wake up until like 10.
watched 2 hours of ER.
then went back to sleep and didn't wake up until like 3:30.
crazy crazy.
and i took a shower at like 6 this evening.
haha. oh boy.
but hey.....tonight is CRIMINAL MINDS WEDNESDAY!!!!!!
so i'm happy.
and i'm going to school tomorrow.
but hey....that's okay.
because right now....i'm feeing great.

so.  i'm sick.  and it pretty much sucks.
seriously. i've been sick all weekend.
i was going to hang out with some
friends...but obviously that didn't
happen. although i did end up
having one of the best weekends
ever. my sister was home. she
went back to college yesterday.
but yeah my parents were in nyc all
weekend for their anniversary...25th.
so my sister and i were home alone
and she took care of me. it was really
nice. and fun. we went to see the pursuit
of happyness. it was good. real good. a
feel good movie at the end. definitely.

so yeah. i really enjoyed my weekend.
minus the being sick part. but. who
enjoys being sick? no one that i know.
la tea da. so. school tomorrow. i think.
i mean i guess it all depends on how i
am feeling. or if i have to go to the doctors.
cause i had a low fever sunday night.
yep yep. so. i think i might take a nice
long hot bath later today. maybe that
will help me feel better. i hope. 

JJ: It's fun beating a genius.
Reid: Genius Dr. Reid let you win.

ahhh yay!!!! :D can't wait for new
episode tomorrow!!! finally!!! a new
episode!!! haha. i mean all the reruns
are basically new episodes to me
cause i'm a new comer to the show.
oh well. haha. :D

peace.
abs.

i love the winter night sky.
and how every single star is visible.
good reason to live in rurual new jersey.
beautiful.

it snowed today.
and it was amazing.
i love snow.

i've been up and down lately.
it's my body getting used to the medication.
i'm still a little weird that i have to take a pill
to make me happy.
but i think i'll get over it soon.
i just don't want to be turned into a zombie.

so tonight, i went to my friend em's house.
for a party. it was amazing.
and i love my friends.
it was awesome.
we did like a dirty santa thing.
alissa got my presents.
i gave a harmonica with a how to book,
a book of e.e. cummings poems,
and much ado about nothing,
and incense.
and i got a teddy bear. 





i
love
winter
night
skies.
and 
how
all
the 
stars
are 
out.
it 
really 
is 
absolutely
beautiful.

hey. 
i haven't updated in a while.
i've been pretty damn busy.
sorry.
things have been..different for me, lately.
last monday, i didn't go to school.
i wasn't sick.
i wasn't trying to fake sick.
i started crying.
and i couldn't stop.
and it wasn't just a cry.
i was probably close to sobbing.
so my parents let me stay home.
i slept until 9.
then my dad took me out for breakfast.
and we went to do some Christmas shopping for my sister and my brother.
then the next day, i went to school.
first period, my science class...we went to the library.
i had to ask to go to the bathroom.
and i had to call my mom.
i felt weird. some sort of mixture of anxiety, homesickness, afraid, nervous, a loss of protection.
so i went to the nurse.
and slept all of second period.
and went back to class for third.
then i was fine...happy, hyper, walking on sunshine.
i don't know.
i really don't know. 






i'm looking at NYU. 
the teachers @ Sylvan think i can get it.
and think that i can get scholarships.
my parents told me to go for it.
so i'm going to look at all these essay writing and poetry writing scholarships.
and try. 
i mean...what can it hurt to just...try?